bullying

I was bullied alot growng up. My Dad died when I was young and my mom was piss poor. We lived in very tough areas. I went to inner city schools most of my childhood. Moving around alot. But I was always THE only white kid in all my classes. I got beat up alot.

Mostly 3 or four guys just pounding the crap out of me. They would catch me outside and I would usually ball up and take it. Then i got sick of it (after like 3 years) and started fighting back. I just figured I'm gonna loose anyway but at least I won't be the only one hurt. So I fought back- hard. The fights became less and less until I finally got repect. Yeah I still got into fights but it was one on one and I would normally win. I guess I am pretty good at fighting now. But I have grown out of it. In a way it made me alot tougher, when I finally got to a county school in high school everyone feared me.
 
Fields said:
...okay, this story can't be completely true, sorry. This seems like a cry for attention. My brother is 13, and he would not consider about 4/5ths of the things on this fucked up 'list' even remotely rational. And nobody can fail suicide 5 separate times.

And that cage story is ridiculous.

Seriously, stop talking about killing yourself, or I'll make sure that someone is notified. I've read about countless cases of kids hinting towards suicide on a forum, then doing it as everyone joked around. Word gets out, the forum gets tons of negative attention, and the members look like shit.
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firstly this story is true just ask my parents

secondly i doubt your brother has been through the shit i have been in

thirdly you can fail at suicide i am living proof of this

fourthly the cage story is true just ask the ones i kicked the shit out of

and i am not going to kill myself i am in a positive environment with no need or desire to kill myself so there is no need to worry
 
When I was in first year I knew these two guys (one went to my Primary school). The one that went to my Primary school (Lets called him "Guy A") was sort of being bullied by this other guy (His cousin is an actor in Shameless and The Last King of Scotland and we will call him "Guy B"). "Guy B" always picked on people until one day (not during school) "Guy A" kicked his ass. I think on the Monday "Guy B" was pushing him so "Guy A" punched him and he went down. Sometime later they went to the park. "Guy B" tried to use his belt buckle as a weapon but "Guy A" took him down, took the belt and used the belt buckle against him. You would have thought "Guy B" would have gave up, right? Wrong.

One time "Guy A" coming home from school was getting off the bus. "Guy B" missed school as usual and he was waiting at the bus stop with a plank of wood with a nail sticking out of it and two 16 year olds (Whereas the two that kept fighting were about 11 or 12 years old). "Guy A" got the absolute crap kicked out of him and I think he was hospitalized. He ended up moving to a private school I think while the tiny bully whos cousin is an actor was later expelled in 2nd or 3rd year. What my point is I don't know about the States or other countries but in Glasgow, if they get beat down they will always come back stronger. Wether it be 2, 4, 6 guys, they will always come back and possibly with weapons.

EDIT: Also I forgot to mention the first guy was pretty tall and the second quite small.

I've had the few pushes etc but nothing extreme, mostly because nearly everyone knew my oldest brother who was a big guy and no one wanted to get on the bad side of him, guess I was lucky. :)
 
I still have no idea how you can fail at something so simple. You need to be committed to something if you want to succeed. Probably if you can manage to fail at killing on of the most vulnerable things on the face of the planet then that explains why you want to. You've obviously failed at much much more important things.
 
i always wanted to die in my school in a bloody mess so people can see what they have done and mainly put psychological trauma of some kind on them when i am dead because in that school i thought regardless of what happened i could not get in any worse of a situation then i was in at the time so i thought hell with it what is the worst they could do, kill me? i just kept this thought in my head and life went along as miserable as usual with no positive days for the 4 years i was in that area and even if i confined myself to my room i can hear them and see them and occasionally they would throw things into my window which would suck as their parents were ignorant bastards who did not care what was going on and franctly i was bullying them which was complete bollocks because i tried to stay as far as possible from them
 
FFGuy said:
firstly this story is true just ask my parents

secondly i doubt your brother has been through the shit i have been in

thirdly you can fail at suicide i am living proof of this

fourthly the cage story is true just ask the ones i kicked the shit out of

and i am not going to kill myself i am in a positive environment with no need or desire to kill myself so there is no need to worry
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I really don't want to make fun of you on here, so I won't point out every blatant thing wrong with your statements thus far. But I have to address this:

So...you have a cage ready for cage matches at all times? Because that's tight as shit. Even moreso, you kicked the shit out of 10+ people? Who were apparently mean and tough enough to lead you to suicide 5 DIFFERENT TIMES, then, AFTER YOU ATTEMPTED SUICIDE give you grief about it? At age 15? I'm a relatively strong, moderately tough 19 year old, and I don't think I could take down more than 6 or 7 15 year olds IN A CAGE MATCH. Cmon man. Be real with us.

This thread is...too much.
 
erm i forgot to say it is not a 'cage' in a literal sense everyone just calls it that it is just the football court with a fence around it and they were only tough when they were together so i just needed to seperate them and the violence didnt lead me to suicide it was just the constant name calling and insults which led me to suicide also i was quite evasive because i rarely ate because i had no self worth or self esteem and i can turn very wild when i am pissed off which gives me a lot more speed and power than normal
 
Aztec Triogal said:
I don't even understand how this is so hard.
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People respond to stressful situations in different ways. While you may have been able to handle bullies without breaking a sweat, not everyone is capable of doing the same thing.

"Easier said than done."

It's easy to give advice but actually being able to follow it is an entirely different matter. It's mental/emotional. Not everyone is able to just brush things off. It'd be nice if we were all able to just suck it up but...alas...
 
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Suicide is a cowardly and selfish way out. If you did manage to off yourself imagine what that would do to your friends and family. No matter how bad you think things are for you there will always be someone out there who is worse off than you remember that the next you contemplate suicide as a solution to your problems.
 
Nergal said:
Suicide is a cowardly and selfish way out. If you did manage to off yourself imagine what that would do to your friends and family. No matter how bad you think things are for you there will always be someone out there who is worse off than you remember that the next you contemplate suicide as a solution to your problems.
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It's not as simple for someone who is suicidal.

Let's say...you're crossing the street when you see a car coming at you. Your reaction would be to jump out of the way. You'd do it before you even had time to contemplate it. You'd do it because you want to survive. It's a rather basic instinct/desire.

That thing that'd make you jump out of the way of an oncoming car isn't present in someone who is truly suicidal. It's not "cowardly" or "selfish" because, yes, it's a conscious decision but someone who is actually thinking of taking their own life doesn't see things the way you do. They're sick and need help, not a verbal lashing.

To the OP: Maybe you should seek help? Talk to your parents? The school counselor? Etc. Try to stay well, though. :)
 
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i had no friends at my lasy school

the year sevens threw gravel at me from the rooftops
the year eights tried to throw bricks at me
the year nines kept making me think my life was worthless
the year tens ignored me
the year elevens and prefects kept winding me and mugging me

so i had no friends there
 
I'm not really trying to be rude or flame here as it's not my style, but FFGuy, are you trying to sound pathetic or what? Honestly, this thread has more then answered any question that you had originally asked, and yet your still 'crying' and telling us things to make us feel bad for you.

I'm honestly wondering if you are just looking for attention. Sorry, but that is just my opinion.
 
thats probably down to my special needs which makes me extra sensitive to things which can make me make subjects more wingy than they are and i am not crying about anything i am just a very sensitive person
 
I don't like proselytizing, but you need martial arts training. Real martial arts training, at a classical school, none of this "Jim's School of Karate-Fightin" crap.

I think you lack confidence in yourself as a person, and that's why people pick on you. This would be a good way for you to gain confidence, strength, intelligence, (most important) self-control.
 
i was bullied from the moment i started infant school to the day i left High school. in juniors i was bullied by the intire school. i had it all, verbal, physical, had people trying to kill me and i was almost raped twice at school. it has emotionally scared me for life, however i am moving on. FFGuy, you should too!
 
The Scriblerian said:
I'm not really trying to be rude or flame here as it's not my style, but FFGuy, are you trying to sound pathetic or what? Honestly, this thread has more then answered any question that you had originally asked, and yet your still 'crying' and telling us things to make us feel bad for you.

I'm honestly wondering if you are just looking for attention. Sorry, but that is just my opinion.
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Vagabond said:
I don't like proselytizing, but you need martial arts training. Real martial arts training, at a classical school, none of this "Jim's School of Karate-Fightin" crap.

I think you lack confidence in yourself as a person, and that's why people pick on you. This would be a good way for you to gain confidence, strength, intelligence, (most important) self-control.
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As I've been saying, giving advice is easier than actually taking it. Someone who has been bullied, and for a long period of time, becomes scarred. You say, "Just do this, this, and this." like it's simple when, for someone who is truly suffering, taking such steps is horribly difficult.

I know because I was bullied myself. I became depressed, so depressed that I cried literally every day during the summer following my 7th grade year. I developed Social Anxiety and lost all confidence in myself. Social Anxiety, all on its own, is pretty debilitating. The simplest of things -- leaving your house, meeting new people, answering the phone -- become incredibly challenging. Those who have Social Anxiety may find it easier to discuss their problems online, with people they'll most likely never meet. The worst of it, I think, is the fact that we're fully aware of our situation. We know we're making it all up in our heads and yet we can't help it. It's not the thought, it's the feeling -- the feeling of being judged, of being alone, etc. It's overwhelming at times.

My advice, to the OP, would be to take baby steps. I didn't come out of my shell, even in the slightest, until my senior year of high school, when I was forced out into the world for my Community Service class. Try getting involved in something but do it on your own terms and push yourself bit by bit. I like reading so I decided to volunteer at the library. It was quiet, a nice atmosphere, and yet it still put me around people I didn't know and forced me to communciate with the general public. Just keep holding on and don't give in. You're too young to give up just yet, give it time. :)
 
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HalfBloodPrincess said:
As I've been saying, giving advice is easier than actually taking it. Someone who has been bullied, and for a long period of time, becomes scarred. You say, "Just do this, this, and this." like it's simple when, for someone who is truly suffering, taking such steps is horribly difficult.

I know because I was bullied myself. I became depressed, so depressed that I cried literally every day during the summer following my 7th grade year. I developed Social Anxiety and lost all confidence in myself. Social Anxiety, all on its own, is pretty debilitating. The simplest of things -- leaving your house, meeting new people, answering the phone -- become incredibly challenging. Those who have Social Anxiety may find it easier to discuss their problems online, with people they'll most likely never meet. The worst of it, I think, is the fact that we're fully aware of our situation. We know we're making it all up in our heads and yet we can't help it. It's not the thought, it's the feeling -- the feeling of being judged, of being alone, etc. It's overwhelming at times.

My advice, to the OP, would be to take baby steps. I didn't come out of my shell, even in the slightest, until my senior year of high school, when I was forced out into the world for my Community Service class. Try getting involved in something but do it on your own terms and push yourself bit by bit. I like reading so I decided to volunteer at the library. It was quiet, a nice atmosphere, and yet it still put me around people I didn't know and forced me to communciate with the general public. Just keep holding on and don't give in. You're too young to give up just yet, give it time. :)
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You give extremely good advice, I was bullied too, though. I was just saying what worked for me.

Find your strengths and find a use for them, find your weaknesses and embrace them, then they'll become your strengths. Sounds cheesy and dumb, but it'll make sense in time.

If you look at the man I am now and the boy I was 5 years ago you may not even recognize me, I have changed so much since then, and most of that was change I created in myself. I got tired of who I was and I decided to grow up.
 
I was gonna say, keep it up HalfDemonGirl... good freaking posts. Holy crap.

Mods should probably not spam so... um... bullying es muy mal?
 
well if your bullied at school you have always got leaving day to look forward to and then you dont have to see anybody from your school ever again!!
 
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