So my update on this is that I just sent her a message saying that I haven't heard from her since I told her how I felt and I'm not sure why. I value her as a friend and am still willing to talk things out. The reason being why I said the things that I did was because I felt I wasn't being respected in the same way that I was respecting her. If I don't hear from her within a week, then I'll know she doesn't want my friendship and won't contact her anymore.
I just feel like the other two times I probably came off kind of hostile, like attack-ish and I tried putting myself in her shoes and I feel like maybe I would also feel uncomfortable contacting someone back after they said things in such a way. So this is my last attempt. I will finally rest after this, over this friendship that I have agonized over so long, even long before this happened. I knew that if I didn't do this, something in me wouldn't just sit quiet and be okay and rested at peace with this situation.
I just feel like the other two times I probably came off kind of hostile, like attack-ish and I tried putting myself in her shoes and I feel like maybe I would also feel uncomfortable contacting someone back after they said things in such a way. So this is my last attempt. I will finally rest after this, over this friendship that I have agonized over so long, even long before this happened. I knew that if I didn't do this, something in me wouldn't just sit quiet and be okay and rested at peace with this situation.