[V3] What's Your Mood?

Mood : Apathetic

May have had a one cup too much of coffee before bedtime, because right now, my body is confused whether if I'm wide awake or I need sleep. Either way, I've been looking for more work to do today, considering the funds I earn from my current job go straight to my college savings, I surprisingly don't have a lot of money to myself. :gasp: I'm halfway getting a new portable music player. Getting a Zune though (considering you can get a lot more at a cheaper price [in comparison to the iPods.]), as my current player only has 21 MB left, and its falling apart to the point where I have to hold it a certain way to get the sound of the music to come out right. :gonk: But it shouldn't be too long before I get the money I need to buy one .
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Mood: Happy

Life is good, and it only gets better. Spending weekends at our old place is awesome because I get to see all my old friends (and be an awesome ass) and things are going well with several people. It's the best of the old with the best of the new :yay:
 
Mood: Knackered

Reason: I've just spent the last three hours cleaning my room, organising my games and DVDs - which always seem to get in a mess no matter what I do - and re-arranging my plushies/figures etc... and I can finally see my carpet again! Its navy blue! :yay:

Left the giant cobwebs where they are, though. They're rather pretty, and they serve as fantastic dust magnets...keeps it off my stuff for a little while longer.

...I need the rest of the day off. Might work on my fanfic later. Plus I should really get another post up for Destiny, but I am so totally demotivated at the moment to do anything...I need to apply for jobs, as well. Damnit, I just spent a month revising and sitting three hour exams, can I not have ONE week off?!
 
Mood: Good

Reason: I got a decent sleep and 99% of my stuff is packed up. Just waiting around for my mum to come pick me up, she'll be here in the next two hours or so. I don't really like waiting around, but I guess I'll have to since she doesn't finish work until later. Looking forward to leaving student accommodation and going home for my three-month summer. I've got quite a few things to look forward to, including a holiday with a very good friend of mine and that said friend staying with me for two weeks or so in August. Now to waaait.
 
Mood: Fine ish. I just woke up ten minutes ago. I had to sleep with the window opened last night because it was so frickin damn hot. It is pretty cooler this morning. I played some more Eternal Sonata last night.. and I think I still need to grind levels. That game is so hard. I am going to try and play another one of my RPG games since Eternal Sonata is more or less headache inducing right now.I went to bed pretty earlier than usual last night as well. I blame the heat. :olivia: Oh yes and I also shaved and cut my hair. Finally as well.
 
Mood: Happy :awesome:

I had a pretty fab day today. The weather was dreary but I did get out of the house and make it to the semi-annual sale at bath and body works. I stocked up on nice-smelling handsoaps for the house, candles, and a full set of the white citrus scent for pretty cheap. When I got home I had a CoD fix...and for dinner deep dish pizza :britt:
 
Mood: Relieved

Reason: The History exam was over yesterday. How it went? Uhh, I may have misinterpreted one of the exam questions slightly; I realised that after talking to some people straight after the exam outside (God, don't you hate it when you do discuss the exam with people only to realise that you may have done something different to the rest of them, hence scaring you for the next few months until results day?) and the topic I thoroughly revised for never showed up. Typical. Still, at least that's History out of the way, I've now two exams left next week, one of which I really do need to revise thoroughly for. In the meantime, trying to get an accommodation application through to this university is just horrifically difficult for some reason, so that's making me tear my hair out. Today and tomorrow - it's back to work. Fun, fun, fun. >.>
 
Disappointed.

I failed my Latin exam. Well, half of the class did, the highest grade being a C+, but still. I was 3 points away from a passing grade. Still passed my course, but still it's the first time I've failed an exam!



 
Mood: Alright

Reason: It's Sunday and we get tomorrow off again which is good.

This weekend has been kinda yuck. Crappy weather and no motivation to do anything due to the crappiness of the weather.

The only good thing was that I got my car in at the panel beaters and they're going to finalise my quote on Tuesday.

Other than that it's been pretty bland.
 
Mood: Content

Reason: Well, I've applied for three jobs this morning, all of which I could do quite happily. Two of them were advertised by the University, so hopefully I'll at least get considered for them. They're fairly local as well, which is ideal. However, my CV is a pile of shit, so I'm not too optimistic. But if I apply for 2-3 jobs every day, SOMEONE should get back to me...

However, I am a little annoyed that I'm pretty much condemned to spend the morning at home. I was hoping to go out and trade in some of my old games for White Knight Chronicles II, but mother has a courier stopping by to pick up a package, and they didn't specify a time, meaning I'm stuck here until they arrive...which they probably won't until this afternoon, and by this afternoon I probably won't be arsed. Ah well. At least its still raining.
 
Mood: Not too bad. I have been getting more sleep lately. The last two nights I went to bed pretty early. I can tell I was tired. Last night I did not stay up so late as well. Got up rather early but I think I will be going back to bed in a little bit. Eternal Sonata is still really hard, so I did not bother playing it much. Ill probably hook up the Playstation II as I want to play Final Fantasy XII. Not so hot this morning... but not so cool either.
 
Mood: I'll probably live...

Reason: I might have been overstretching myself over the last few days. Saturday was a long shift at work and yesterday while not quite as long drained me as well. I did go off to work earlier today, but I only lasted about two hours or so before I started getting small bouts of dizziness. Luckily it hasn't been that bad as I never actually felt that nauseous or sick. I just wanted a reason to get out of there and lie down to rest for a bit. I won't bother working until Friday - tomorrow I'll just be out in town and the next couple of days after that will be my final exams before I completely finish 6th form for good. I'm STILL waiting for an email regarding my accommodation application for university though, and it's been several days. This is frankly, getting fucking ridiculous, though I suppose I'm not the most patient person.
 
Mood-Hungry

I haven't eaten anything today except a mini choco cupcake my sister gave me. I want food! I may order pizza...
 
Mood : Content

I was originally planning on getting passport today, only to realize that I misplaced my birth certificate. :jtc: And my mom in SC won't let me use her copy because she keeps saying that my grandma has a spare that I can use . . . only you could trust her with valuable items as far as you could lift her; and me . . . I'd break my back. Anywho, instead of getting said passport, we went to the main office to request a new certificate. Should be in the mail soon enough so that we can try this again another time.
Other news, my LED/Blacklight pois were just mailed out, so I'll get to practice my fire dancing in the comfort of my own home soon. :griin: Rather than have to drive for nearly an hour twice a week to get 2 hour lessons. With the help of well-trusted Youtube videos, I'll be able to get training as much as I want to now ~
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Mood: Upset

I'm not a big kid lover, and I've always felt awkward with going to my sister's house, seeing she's either pressing about my work, school, or relationship, and literally just pressing. She had her second kid a few months ago, and yes, I admit, I still didn't go visit to look at the new born baby, fair enough. She's told me she was sick once when we had plans for me going over, and I was sick to, what do I do, go in with a cold and make her kids sick? Feel miserable going if I just wanna stay in bed? No.

Just got a text from her going ''You're a really annoying sister. I'm gonna see if I can trade you for one that shows interest. I hope it works!" This woman is 40. REALLY? Can you REALLY be more insensitive, and illogical with your text. >.>

Kinda upset me, but annoyed me more than anything tbh. I've always felt forced in to things I don't either want to talk about, or don't care about, and it's always pressed on me. I'm sorry I'm not a baby lover jumping around out of excitement to see your kid, though certain texts are just uncalled for.

I can't even tell if it's her snappy sarcasm or seriousness anymore. In all honesty, I already felt myself dreading to call her and make a 'date' to stop by, but now, I don't even feel comfortable with it anymore tbh. She can't force it upon us that we're 'close' in any way, 'cause we're not.

I understand she is upset people close to her won't come to see her kid, (ie. my mom for family reasons with her, and now me) but, it's no reason to act snappy. It's not like she's showed any concern in order to ask if there might be a REASON I didn't yet. =/

Great start of day, that's the best thing. She sent it at 9 in the morning. Thanks. Appreciate it. Kind of in a, 'fuck you too' mood at the same time though.

Meh. Anyways, I'm up early, so I think I'm just gonna watch Bones before work. =/
 
Mood: Stressed

Reason: I'm still missing one exam result...and it'll make-or-break my overall degree classification. Its absolutely terrifying...I don't know whether I should be cautiously optimistic, absolutely dejected or overwhelming fatalistic. I have no idea how well or how poorly I've done...

...but this is also extremely annoying. Why can't they just release everything at once? Those stupid CUNTS. I do NOT like waiting like this. At least with my GCSE results and A-Levels I got them all at once, waiting like this when everything combines to form your overall mark is like...spending the entire day playing Final Fantasy XIII, and then having an all-night Naruto marathon. I physically and mentally cannot handle this. Exams? Fine. Revision? Fine. Waiting for the results? This is definetely my limit.
 
Mood: Challenged

At this point in time, I've made a bet with myself. Recently, I have become quite addicted to DotA... Like, seriously addicted. Okay. It's not affecting any personal relationships yet, but it's most certainly slowing down the rate at which I do my work...

AND I NO LIKE IT.

I don't like the idea of being addicted too. Not to games anyway. So I challenged myself yesterday that I will not touch DotA the whole of today... Which means until 12 midnight. Lol. I'm already planning for after 12, but whatever it is, the main point is to show myself that I have control.

Right now, temptation's seeping in.

I mean, with my current state of DotA... I recently discovered a server. ASEAN server, apparently, where a hell lot of noobs play. Seriously. Playing in my own Singapore server, and playing in that ASEAN server is like a world of difference - in skill that is. In my local servers, at least 75% of the players are like... Nightmarish professionals.

They react like they're real WCG players... Hell, some of them are. It's just a horror to play with them. They operate alone, and behave as if there is no need for a team - just them would suffice. And half the time in games I play there, it's always like that. Some guy owns the game literally running across the map taking down all there is that can be taken down.

I'm not that good, but I'm not that bad. Average, but not good enough to create a team effort with complete strangers to take down someone like that. And considering how harsh the language can get there, it's probably a real deterrent against becoming addicted. I don't swear as a second language. The people there apparently do.

Then while playing for fun, I figured I could no longer access my local servers. It's probably a bug, but it limited me to ASEAN servers... Where all the people that are frighteningly bad plays.

Suddenly, I am in the shoes of those extremely professional players that I cannot help but look up to.

That is why I am addicted. There are some local players there, but by being there, apparently, it means they are not that good. Or so I would believe anyway, seeing how some local players actually play as badly as the other players there.

I guess it helped bolster my confidence as well. Now I'm more willing to try heroes that I would never dare to try in local servers. From zero to hero. And that's why I'm so tempted. A daily dosage of confidence boost.

Or time-wasting?

I'll stick to my challenge.
 
Mood: Awesome

Reason: I got a 1st in my degree. I aced the last exam I was waiting on, and it kicked my average up to 72%...its a low 1st, but its still a 1st. Regardless of the method they use to classify my degree (there are three of them) I'll end up with a 1st Class Honours Degree, and I feel so fucking AWESOME right now. I was always aiming for a 2:1, since that is what employers tend to look for...this is a personal achievement, and I don't get those very often. FUCKING HELL YES! :awesome:
 
Lezard Valeth

Congratulations! Cool! I hope I can get that some day as well!

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Mood: Tempted

Still on to my challenge today. It's not easy, and the devil's temptation in me is going crazy. If the temptation is translated into a Facebook analogy, it'll be that the notification are now way above 100. >.>

I almost failed the challenge too. I've been reasoning with myself, telling myself how I can still play, but not online... And all that whatnot. The battle is against myself, but thank goodness I'm winning.

With the bulk of the day gone, I know I have won, though it isn't time for me to relax and let my guard down yet. The temptation's still there, but I know with the end point approaching, I have more reasons to hold back until 12 mid night, than to play right away as I had been thinking for most of today.

But it's cool. What I proved to myself is an ability to commit. I did things I don't usually 'feel' like doing - though I very well could. Like, going out to get my own lunch instead of calling for delivery? Making the effort to go down to the piano school to practice?

Either way, I'm still not going to let my guard down. They say 'you are your greatest enemy'. Damn right they are.
 
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