[V4] What's Your Mood?

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Feeling so sick today. I have absolutely no desire to leave my bed.

Luckily no headache so I can screw around with photoshop or something until I pass out. :gonk:

Right now way beyond annoyed, not only did I stupidly forget to renew my FF14 sub but last night my PS4 froze and is now dead so no FF and no PS4 utterly gutted :(
So you have to get a new PS4? D:
 
Mood: Blah.

Woke up at 8 a.m. and immediately cleaned up my room for a couple hours. Somehow the kids' clothes (some, dirty) are making its way in my bedroom, especially under my bed. Legos, empty water bottles they are secretly collecting and stashing, unpaired socks under my pillows, etc. Took us a couple hours to sort things out. They did not enjoy my miserable mood earlier...neither did I, but it is what it is.

I need to start cracking down on my summer class too.
 
Mood: Drama Queen

I've been tired all day and of course I stayed up way too late last night. Working today and doing 8hr overtime tomorrow so I'm feeling a little pissy with the general lack of time doing the things I want to do. Haven't been able to touch FFXIV the past week or two which is annoying since the sub is paid and all...bloody hell!

Can't complain really since inevitably the extra cash is for buying tickets to Leeds Music Festival and booking the overnights for Longitude festival. Still, I could do with a lazy day now and again! Such a spoiled brat! :lew:
 
Mood: Aggravated

I have not been in the best of moods lately. My job is getting just a tad bit annoying. They are giving out more work than usual over there and when I don't have my partner with me it becomes harder for me to get the necessary information in my head. I’m just a tad little depressed about it. It feels like I'm working by myself or something, can't quite put my finger on it. I missed work tonight though because while trying to go for a swim today I stepped on some pointy thing and well, I couldn't walk for a while so I had to stay in bed. That fucked up my day royally, considering I was having a great time with my family on father's day. Blegh, everything is just so annoying. People can be ignoring me left and right, it is honestly quite aggravating. As for school, it doesn't appear that I will be doing any summer courses because I found out everything was full. I'm stuck at home, going to a job I don't like, and much more. I cannot set things in motion for myself at all and it is becoming major, in fact so major that I'm becoming depressed over life. I haven't been sleeping at all lately because I have been drinking far too much coffee and staying up playing UC4 but mostly FFXIV these days to get the relic done. There's nothing else to do on the game but cap stuff and dedicate myself to the massive grind right now. I've asked people to join me but I get no response for Nidhogg extreme so I'm only trying to clear that sporadically. In conclusion, I would like to say that the summer has quite honestly been royally crap so far. Nobody seems to appreciate my efforts in life or even online sometimes and it is beginning to show. Do I just stand here like a moron and let people downplay me like that? Nope, I need to stand up for myself but it is hard when you are feeling depressed with so much shite on your mind. Heh, at least watching the Euro cup is fun enough to chill. Hopefully Italy can get far and make me happy.

/endrant
 
Mood: :kira:

Reason: The bleeding exams are over and done with (though I absolutely regret choosing that last question. I was halfway through it and realised I wasn't quite prepared for it and I flicked over to find another question that I could have answered instead. FML. :brooding:). I am free.

At least for a few days. Next week is my work scheme thing and it involves some Dragons' Den nonsense too. Ohhhh boy.
 
Well, overtired. :lew:

Was up with the kid most of the night. She had a bit of trouble sleeping, and I only got maybe three hours myself. Haha.

Here's to hoping tonight will be a little different?
 
Mood: Calmed

I am feeling calmed today because I finally finished the University. Now I can relax a bit and start looking for a job related to my profession. I'm glad that is over with. It is kind of hard for me to keep calm specially if something goes wrong with my work. I get angry pretty fast and then it takes some time to be in my normal state.
 
"Creatively blocked" at the moment, and frustrated by extension. >_<

In short, I'm writing a book, and I'm having issues with where to go next. I scrapped a version of it a few years ago and started anew recently, with a great concept, but now I've hit that dreaded "wall". -_-
 
I'm dying.

Power is out here. Which means the heater isn't working. In winter. So I'm sitting in the dark on my laptop with five hours of battery life, freezing to death. We were cooking dinner when it went so now that isn't any good. And I'm hungry. Might have to order something again (two nights in a row? UGH). Probably not worth heading out to my parent's house. Will have to make do with candles and stuff.

Siiiiigh.
 
Somewhat relieved.

Took my kid to the children's hospital here for a hip ultrasound. (A couple of weeks ago, the pediatrician heard a click coming from her right hip.) The ultrasound tech, radiologist, and pediatrician all said to check again in a month, but they're almost certain it's because she's still quite young; the hip joint is still developing, apparently.

So that brings some relief. I'd rather she not need hip replacement by the time she's 30ish. (Not before me, dammit.)
 
Mood: Tired/ Relaxed/ In pain
Reason: I went to the ER and had Carpal Tunnel surgery this morning. Apparently I got a case of it that in my surgeons 25 years, shes only seen 1 that was as bad as mine. I got a much worse version called 'Acute Carpal Tunnel' which basically can cause interrupted bloodflow in your wrist and can cause permanent nerve damage if let go too long. It sets in fast and gets bad fast. The jobs I've had in my life have done my body no favors at all. Assembly line for 2 years, and warehouse work that is nothing but heavy lifting and fast paced work for 3 years. Physical labor jobs have beaten me down. I'm only 26, yet my body feels like I'm 50 :/
 
Mood: Bursty - Cycling through reserves and trying to balance out the energy so others can have a little more.

Reason: 2016 has been one of those years that will always be looked at as a trial. When a man has to ask himself, "Is this the world out of tune or am I over thinking it?", it tends to make it easy to over analyze to try to plan ahead. I need a clone, please make it happen 2017.

Work:

1) In March of 2016 our company announced the merger finality
2) In May of 2016 I received some news about my job and that I have been sworn to secrecy.
3) In Mid 2016 Dilma Rousseff, the Brazil President was impeached, resorting to a lot of new regulatory actions and due to this making business with Brazil super hard to conduct. (not to mention economy is in the gutter)
4) I am now being included in senior management talks in global initiatives and asked about my visionary goals.

Family:

1) My father became an ordained Presbyterian minister. (He was a litigation accountant up to this point)
2) My nieces have been asking my brother where I am now since I'm the "Cartoon Uncle" as they put it, who is there to make them laugh. I start to question things.
3) Last year my cousin went into severe depression and passed away. This year my Uncle's health declined and he died of heart complications due to diabetic congestive heart failure.
4) This past Saturday my father pulls me aside and said my Ma's cancer treatment has gone cold. Yesterday she went through a platelet transfusion. Her chemo has been readjusted stronger as of yesterday. I start to question things harder.

Friends:

1) One who is dear to us (in Nashville) has recently been treated with a cocktail of pharmaceutical drugs for her mental health. Her condition has been worse as of late to the point she went ahead and had a CT Scan two weeks ago. Without being more personal I noticed other things off around it that connect in my head. I am here now staying at their place trying to be a little bit of a goof ball to mix up the energy.
2) My other friend (in Oxford) is a little older than I am. He puts a lot of faith in me and my work style. He recently went through a break up, where as he takes no vacation and is burned out. The only issue is, he does drink a bit much and I have to be weary when around him now.
3) My other friend (in Oxford) went through a divorce and has a baby. I have literally been a friend and a pseudo therapist. I can only offer what I have been through, but with a child I have no idea of the direction he may choose. He is super destroyed, but does seem to be lighter after talking to me. I try to diffuse the situation with him, but I know I could be there more for him as an ear.. I'll work on it.

Forums:

1) @Mitsuki and others pulled me back. So, yo! :grin:.
2) Working on the roll out plan of more social networking
3) Actively trying to read the trends other than FFXV and FFXIV. To put it in words "SE better deliver."
4) Signing up for Kupo Con, hope to see some of you folks there in 2017.

FFXIV:

1) Same - You guys pulled me back! Though I am enjoying it. Even had my buddy transfer last night lol.
2) Getting to meet the new people, feels good to be a member level and throw in some shenanigans :grin:.
3) Last night I counted 12-13 people on at a time. Good stuff.
 
Mood: Nostalgic / Tired

Missing the GFX Clans. :sad2: Now that Birthweek is going to be over soon it's full focus back on SOTW and the Spira section. Let's do this. :D

Going a bit better personally. Hoping things calm down a bit more soon, though. This whole month has been nothing but a train wreck. I'm over it. :brooding:
 
Super friggin' tired! :yawn: The darling child was up almost every two hours to feed. I'm a light sleeper the way it is, so of course I usually wake up at the littlest noises anyway. With her interesting noises throughout the night, too... forget about it. :gasp:

Coffee craze today!
 
mood: disappointed :confused:

ISP back at it again with the shitty connection! had to quit the game early (4AM lol) >:( hope it'll be fixed by tomorrow ;___;
 
Mood: Completely knackered but hapys/hapus (god knows; it's too late for welsh)

Reason: Got addicted to Resi 5, one of the best multiplayer games out there. So, it's now coming up to half 1 and I'm writing in this thread :wacky:. I'm looooving replaying a nostalgic game both on mercs and the main story. I'm surprised I can remember the emblem locations and treasures up to and including chapter 2-1. Here's hoping that continues! Also, who knew that you could unlock a million trophies so easily via mercs? I wish I knew that last time! :lew:

Anyways, 'nighty night :sleep:.
 
Mood: Disappointed

Italy was knocked out of Euro 2016 vs Germany on penalties and I felt they really gave the victory away. Two players acted like idiots on the pitch and it was very shameful to watch. Overall, Italy has had an amazing tournament, and while i'm happy they knocked Spain out last week, Germany looked very weak today. I didn't like the match at all and I felt it was a joke by the time penalties came on. Germany missed first and Italy had it in the bag after that but they missed as well. Hate to say it, but this has ruined my day pretty badly as I felt Italy would go farther than this. Meh, we always are knocked out and i'm used to it at this point but this game was abysmal. In general, penalty sudden death shootout in football is always scary to watch but this was the most disappointing to watch by a long mile. I'm just gonna try to forget about this day and enjoy my night right now.... meh.
 
Mood: Mixed

Reason:



  • Tired - I've been trying to have plentiful rest, but suddenly having to operate on a normal working person's day pattern is messing with me and round about midday I feel like a befuddled corpse. Goodness knows how much money I've spent on coffee of late just to sustain me. :lew:
  • Contemplative - Client care work and drafting legal advice has been quite an experience. I worry though that I've made some noticeable mistakes when interviewing clients and whether I even properly understood some of the legal issues they were facing. I concede that this is part of the learning process and the LAC service I've been working for is a free service, but I can't help but overly criticise every little mistake I've made. It's not necessarily a part of me demanding perfection, but rather a part of me constantly concerned about my own competency at times.
  • Apprehensive - some chaps from a regional firm are going to interview me on Wednesday and while I've been trying to prepare, I'm not going to lie: I am nervous as hell.
  • A wee bit frustrated - part of my work scheme has a Dragons' Den-style group project where we have to come up with some product idea and be roasted by a panel of "Dragons" on Friday. I've tried to reach out to my assigned group members, but there's been no word. I would have liked to get the ball rolling and the introductions aside before tomorrow, because we honestly don't have much time to work on this, unless one group member is already a creative entrepreneur in the making.
  • Sad - My contract for this flat ends in less than a week and well...I'm going to miss my flatmates. It's not been entirely civil and friendly, because I have clashed with one of them in the recent past, but overall they've been a fun lot to live with, despite the occasional boisterous League of Legends nights and the vomit all over the kitchen floor. They're all international postgraduate students too, so once their dissertations are done, they're off their separate ways, scattering around the globe. Naturally, I'll keep in contact with them and tonight can be our last "hurrah" dinner out before one of us departs tomorrow. :sad2:
  • Relieved - Honest to God, I just need a break. I miss the seaside (but not the evil, territorial Blackpudlian seagulls...) and the folks at home. I'll have a wee bit of time to enjoy that before I take up a temporary paralegal post and my legal practice course from September. Predictably, I've missed FFXIV badly. Even if it's on crappy PS3 and it can freeze at any moment, I'll take it.
 
Accomplished ^_^

Got into a brand new job at management level, so I'm pretty excited to start that on Tuesday. It'll not only get me on a decent career path, but it'll keep me occupied outside of taking care of the kid right now. :lew: (Not that I don't love her or anything. Haha.)
 
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