What's Hard For You?

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Pretty much, what's the top things about yourself you absolutely HATE!?

Let's see, first and foremost, procrastination has me bad. I always wait until the last minute for almost everything creative, and at that usually presents me with less-than decent work. It's something I hate about myself, but like everyone else, it's a trait we all share at one point.

Another is not being able to stay dedicated to working out/being on a diet. I have done it several times in the last few years with the mindset that I want to lose weight, but I never fall through. I either think it's gonna be too hard or just my lazy mindset takes over. As for the diet, I just love to eat too much and I'm just not disiplined enough to even attempt a correct diet. However, I should because I'm pushing 286 now. :(

I think the last one is how I'm insecure about everything about myself. This can range from my weight or even the creative things I do(GFX, writing, etc..). For my weight, I am your typical "Oh I'm too fat to be happy" and all that jazz. For the creative things I do, I am just too critical of myself, and that does indeed fall under "insecure". I think my stuff isn't good enough without re-working it entirely until it becomes even more shitty. Even then, I hestitate showing it off. ;_;
 
My indecisiveness with spending my money gets on my nerves sometimes. I make some very stupid, brain-dead spur-of-the-moment decisions, then a few minutes/hours/weeks later, I'll think "Oh, fuck me, I wish I hadn't done that." or something similar, because I tend to lean towards "do it" rather than "err on the side of caution" for some weird reason.

Other stuff doesn't really bother me. You'd think with all the complaining I do that it would, but it really doesn't; that's just my way of dealing with it. If I didn't procrastinate, for example, I'd never get any work done, as I operate best under pressure. I don't really like a lot of things of myself, but there is nothing I really hate...I've changed what I don't like, or learned to live with it. Enough people are going to hate me as is without me adding to it by mentally berating myself, no? :lew:
 
Procrastination is definitely one of the banes of my university life so far, as it had been during my sixth form years, though interestingly not so much during the GCSE period. What worries me lately is that even when I'm under pressure with work, I still have trouble trying to force myself to work at a reasonable enough pace. My brain knows that I should be getting a move on, or else I be metaphorically guillotined later on at feedback, but it continues to struggle in getting the rest of me to pick up the slack. It isn't ameliorated by the fact that I do worry too much about everything else at the same time.

This brings me to another thing I hate about myself - I worry too much. I worry about the smallest things, even things that I probably shouldn't need to worry about, such as my finances so far. One big area of concern for me is my fickle short term memory, which fluctuates from decent at one moment to absolutely dire the next. It does lead me to discuss my "concerns" with personal tutors and seminar tutors and most of the time, my questions are either things I have already been told at least twice already, but need yet another confirmation, or just really trivial things that just aren't worth asking.
 
My memory and my paranoia.

I always have to write everything down if I am to remember it. I always say, 'Oh I'll remember to do that.' and then forget of course. You think I would learn by now that my memory is shit and to just always write things down so that I don't have to even attempt to retain the information in my head!

My paranoia about anything and everything is annoying too.

Always scared that it's going to hail on my car when it starts to rain. Just stupid things like that which make me stress out and get anxious and unable to just relax and get through each day without issues. XD
 
As cynical as I can be, I don't think there is anything about myself that I hate. Personally I don't see the point in being negative towards myself because it only leads to putting yourself down and thinking you're not good enough. I know I have my flaws but I'm an extremely laid back person and I'd rather sit there, take positives out of those flaws and think about how I can improve on those flaws.

In regards to actions, to quote my friend on Facebook --

"Never regret anything, because at the time it is was exactly what you wanted"

Period.
 
Im pretty much exactly like ryan on these regards. Im very laid back. I dont see the poiint either in worrying about my flaws. Though i suppose thats maybe because i dont think i have any serious issues which affect me in life. I have the words ''live free'' tattooed on my chest and i stick by that saying.
 
:hmmm: the title of this confused me :wacky:

I could make a massive list on all the things I hate about myself but I'm not the kind of person to do something like that hahaha, I'm stuck with what I got, there is not much point complaining about it :hmmm:

Though if I had to list the thing I hate most... it's probably the fact that I am very argumentative. I like to argue about everything :rage: and I can't help it and i will argue until I win or until I cannot argue any more. It's annoying for myself and the poor people who get stuck fighting with me :sad3:
 
i cant think of anything about myself that makes me severely depressed so if i do have issues now and then theyre definitely nothin to write home about. im fairly laid back (almost typed retarded there) but i have my reflective moments. :hmmm:
 
I do not see the correlation between finding something hard, and hating yourself, it seems a weird connection to make. I find java programming difficult, but I have no idea why that would result in me hating myself. I hate the dress sense my 5 year old self had if that helps
 
Kandy-Sugar said:
My memory and my paranoia.

I always have to write everything down if I am to remember it. I always say, 'Oh I'll remember to do that.' and then forget of course. You think I would learn by now that my memory is shit and to just always write things down so that I don't have to even attempt to retain the information in my head!
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I'm the very same. I have so many different logins for different sites, that I have them written down on one piece of paper.

Now that I think of it, I could've put that as one of the things that are hard for me, but there are too many things to put down. :lew:
 
Okay, yeah..I though this thread was supposed to name things that are hard for you, not that you hate your self for...

Anyways, what's hard for me? That's simple: approaching strangers and relaxing on my own in a social setting without a friend or for of entertainment.
I seem to suffer from social anxiety which pretty much means that I can't function all that well in a public place without a friend. I always think that someone is staring at me or talking about me even when I know that no one actually is. It sucks.

I don't go out unless I have to and if not then I have a friend with me.
 
I find it hard socialising in a large group.

When I meet up with Chris' large group of friends, this is because I don't know half the people and end up sitting in on their remeniscient chats. When I am meeting people new to me, it's simply because I'm too nervous and find it very difficult to mingle. I'm okay when the group are adults...but if the group is similar in age to me (between 18 and 26, let's say), I worry that they'll think me weird. :(

I also find it hard telling people when I'm upset with them...

I always feel my getting upset is selfish... If I'm upset because someone has messed me about, for example, and has let me down after making a promise, I feel I should be fully empathetic and forgive them because they do have their own needs. If someone does this consistently, I get a bit more irritated, but don't like to tell them because I feel they won't see it as a major problem and will think I am over-reacting. If someone says something hurtful, I sometimes fear I've over-reacted.
 
OP (Zipper), I am a bit like you. I hate my weight; I am not even that overweight, I just cannot stand not being smaller like I used to be. It annoys me, a LOT.
And as for creative stuff, I write a lot, but hate it a few days later and never show it to anyone - even if it summed up something well at the time. Drives me mental how I am always not proud enough of any creative work I do. :'(
 
I've gotten over my younger years of hating how I look, but now I hate the level of physical shape I'm in. Even after Parris Island, I can't run faster than a six minute mile. And while that's good and all, when I was in middle/high school I could do it in five minutes and it pisses me off that I can't anymore. And I still can't do more than five pull-ups.

On a certain level, I hate being a girl. It sucks. A lot. Most of my life problems would be solved if I'd just been born a guy.

Math. And I will never, EVER, be good at it. xD I don't know why. It's not like I don't try. Even doing simple math in kindergarten, I think I was the only kid who really struggled with it, and my teachers always, every year without fail, informed my parents I suck at math and that I'd never be an accountant.
 
First thing that came to my mind is getting up early in the morning. 10am onwards is fine by me, but anything before that is a challenge. :rage: I'm just not a morning person. Sometimes when I'd wake up grumpy, I'd be silent and not talk to anyone because I might snap at them. It wears off after I take a shower. There used to be a time where I relied heavily on coffee to wake me up. After a year, it just didn't work anymore. So it's just me battling with my alarm clock again. :wacky:

Being friends with a ex is also hard for me. I don't talk to any of my exes, no matter how things ended. Kudos to people who are, but I can't get myself to backtrack to friendship. I'm absolutely not bitter, but I just can't shake the awkwardness of the memories. I mean...they happened. It's there and you can't undo them, I just can't seem to get past that. :hmmm:
 
What's hard for me:
Math in general (I'm horrible at it)
-Sticking up for myself (I just let people walk all over me sometimes, which is awful), -Walking in a straight line (Well, not really, but I'm horribly clumsy)
-Being selfish (I'll admit, I can be selfish, but I tend to not do something to make me happy if I know it'll hurt others. I really hate confrontation for the most part) -Controlling my anger when it actually hits a boiling point (I'm the Hulk, yo)
-Being pretty (Har har har, I'm pretty, I guess, I just sometimes have a horribly low self esteem).
-Hiding my emotions (Trust me, I'll try my best and still have the whole room staring at me).
 
I'm laid back as these other jokers have said.. but I still hate things about myself that I voice openly.

I hate that I'm an asshole when I have a tired voice on.. If I've had a long day, apparently everyone goes.. Dude what's the matter?

I guess I should snort some cocaine, and be chipper all the time.

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I hate that I'm self aware and living in the south of USA. It would be much easier to just be a normal Christian being around these parts and hang out with boring folks who talk about the same self absorbed notions and walk around the same circles.. every night, then having to NOT be able to stand them. I have more tattoo artist as friends, than friends in this town. Put me back in the Matrix damnit, give me the other pill. What's the point of self awareness if you can't do anything with it down here?
 
Mostly I hate that I feel like I'll forget something I have to do. Even if it's only a 2 hour stretch between me learning about what I have to do, and actually doing it. But when the time comes, I always remember it anyway. I always have this feeling, but it never ends up being a problem. Just like with tests, I always say I'm gonna fail every year, but every year I end up passing them. I guess it's just insecurities more than anything else.
 
Hehe, what do I hate 'bout myself. For starters, the lazy typing. Damn my segmenting. 'Tever. Moving on.

Lazy. Procastinating. I seldom make an effort to improve myself. And sometimes my awkward phrasing has my blogging de-fragmented. I'm comfortable being viewed a 'loser', for the you can't love yourself without the hate on the side. Human existence is a fickle goddess. Let us never forget my habit of constant transitioning between video games. Say, if I'm grooving on Yu-gi-oh on Monday, then it'll be Final Fantasy 12 on Tuesday, maybe it'll be back to yu-gi-oh on Wednesday, maybe Xenosaga, or Soul Calibur. You NEVER know what you'll end up playing the next day.

And the list can be as long as I will it, so I will conclude. Farewell.
 
im bone idle and indecisive. I really annoy myself with my indecisiveness as well. I also find even the most basic maths hard, which frustrates me no end. Haha. My memory is appalling as well, il remember the most irrelevant things, but I cant remember I need to buy/pick up/generally do anything, unless ive written it down. even then il forgot ive written it down and find it too late.
 
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