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Really unsure.. Over the past few years I’ve been losing myself and finding myself at the same time. Finding myself as in finding what I am interested in, but also finding that what I am is barely anything compared to most other people I know, and losing myself by going insane over the latter revelation.
I’ve lost my way a bit, and have lost my head and I am now left thinking I have no skills at all.. Which can’t possibly be true. I used to have some, so surely there is hope that I still may?
I used to be quite good at running, which was always a skill which earned me the right not be get beaten up by the dominant males at my school. I earned their respect by kicking their asses at running, etc. I gave it up before going to uni because I was never fantastic at it, and it was never going be my career. It ended up just getting in the way of everything else. I was ok at it, but compared to most people at the club I was begining to slow people down as I had been hit with illness and injury too many times, and I didn't have the healthy-eating plan or the motivation to keep myself strong and improve.. Doing that would have meant dedicating my life to my running, and I couldn't afford to do that.
I’m apparently a good listener, which is something I guess. If anyone has any problems, once they start to realise that I’m not just a blank-monkey, and if they start talking and go into their issues I’ll listen to them. I’ll do my best to give advice, or just listen and show concern. I’m meant to be quite good at that. As a result I seem to have made better friends with people that people normally wouldn't speak to.
I’ve been trying to find skills in other areas that are constructive for my life, but my head hasn’t been working properly. I can never seem to focus on anything at the moment... I want to learn how to draw, but I can never be bothered to learn… Same with writing… I have ideas I want to put down, but lack the skills needed to be a good writer. I have quite an active imagination, and I'm quite creative in the ideas I have in my mind, I just don't have a way of getting them down at the moment.
But I’ve learned now, I just have to slap myself and get on with it. Screw everything, and just attempt it... Otherwise the days will continue merging with each other and every year I live will just be a blur with nothing in terms of personal achievement to show for it.
Special talent? Probably missing or not found / nurtured at the moment, but I'm now willing to find it!
I’ve lost my way a bit, and have lost my head and I am now left thinking I have no skills at all.. Which can’t possibly be true. I used to have some, so surely there is hope that I still may?
I used to be quite good at running, which was always a skill which earned me the right not be get beaten up by the dominant males at my school. I earned their respect by kicking their asses at running, etc. I gave it up before going to uni because I was never fantastic at it, and it was never going be my career. It ended up just getting in the way of everything else. I was ok at it, but compared to most people at the club I was begining to slow people down as I had been hit with illness and injury too many times, and I didn't have the healthy-eating plan or the motivation to keep myself strong and improve.. Doing that would have meant dedicating my life to my running, and I couldn't afford to do that.
I’m apparently a good listener, which is something I guess. If anyone has any problems, once they start to realise that I’m not just a blank-monkey, and if they start talking and go into their issues I’ll listen to them. I’ll do my best to give advice, or just listen and show concern. I’m meant to be quite good at that. As a result I seem to have made better friends with people that people normally wouldn't speak to.
I’ve been trying to find skills in other areas that are constructive for my life, but my head hasn’t been working properly. I can never seem to focus on anything at the moment... I want to learn how to draw, but I can never be bothered to learn… Same with writing… I have ideas I want to put down, but lack the skills needed to be a good writer. I have quite an active imagination, and I'm quite creative in the ideas I have in my mind, I just don't have a way of getting them down at the moment.
But I’ve learned now, I just have to slap myself and get on with it. Screw everything, and just attempt it... Otherwise the days will continue merging with each other and every year I live will just be a blur with nothing in terms of personal achievement to show for it.
Special talent? Probably missing or not found / nurtured at the moment, but I'm now willing to find it!
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