[V4] What's Your Mood?

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Mood- Meh.

Reason- This weekend has been one that's been needed. I haven't had a chance to get sleep because work has been ramping up with Memorial Day coming up. So I finally got a chance to just sit down, play video games, relax, listen to music, and catch up on missed sleep. Sometimes I forget what it's like to even have a life. Seems like all I do is work.
I love what I do, I work with co-workers that I love being around. Sometimes I sit and wonder if I chose incorrectly though.

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to had pursued the military when I inquired about it in high school. I went to the United States Air Force recruiting office and qualified for any job they had. My test scores were high and all that. All I had to do was drop weight and I could get the ball rolling for boot camp. I dropped from 275 down to 190. Then I just lost all motivation and gave up. Sometimes I look back and wonder where I'd be if I had just went back and further pursued it. :hmmm:
 
Mood - Optimistic

Description: Eh, been feeling alright these days. I've been climbing indoors, hiking and camping outdoors with a bunch of new buds, and been uber crunched at work with our initiatives. I am not training actively for any half marathons, but been getting into better shape day by day.

My love life is all the same, dating a girl for around 2.5 years now and we are doing awesome. Life is pretty great sometimes when you can mitigate and help others achieve.
 
Mood: Not so good. Last few days have been kinda crappy honestly

But no point dwelling on it maybe. Got new Internet and a new laptop and stuff over the last couple of days, so that's nice. Also enjoying Stormblood a fair bit - though the jumping puzzle is so stupid JUST SAYING

But yeaaaaah. I need sleep maybe
 
Mood: Frustrated

Reason: Life has been weird with me lately with being orphaned and having to deal with finances and learning how to walk again this year alone. Recently I thought things were going well in life but in the past few weeks I've quit my job out of frustration with my immature bosses, had a friend go to the hospital after a horrific injury, been told by two other friends that they hare having babies at the end of this year and have had someone whose romantic advances I've been keeping at arms length tell me he loves me only to "take it back" a few days later when I allow myself to believe him. Right now I've been on vacation but with everything going on outside of this paradise I can barely get a grip on how to behave or feel and needed a safe space to air out my frustrations with everything. Whew!
 
Mood: Pessimistic

Typical me, lol. It's been quite a weird year. June was especially stressful because my mom was in the hospital last year around that time, and so that really made me feel on edge. Thankfully we got through June fine but it's not all been ups. I guess that's how everything works. You gotta take the ups with the downs. Balance and all. Doesn't always feel balanced, I can tell you that.

I sometimes take on too much responsibility with pretty much anything, and I guess I need to chill on that part too. Wearing myself out.

Acceptance. That's probably my worst enemy.
 
Mood: Exhausted

Reason: Done too much today already. Had to walk into the next town over to find out where I'm supposed to be going on Thursday for an appointment for something I am absolutely terrified of - this involves hills, my natural enemy, and nature, an old friend that now seems to wish to kill me for some reason - and I'm about half done with sorting out my bedroom, which got dismantled last week so a new radiator I didn't need could be put into it. I've been living the last few days with just my bed, my TV, and my PS4 in there...guess I don't need much else, but unfortunately the boxes cannot stay in my brother's room, so I have to unpack them...ugh. As if not having hot water for four days wasn't bad enough.

Bugger this nonsense. I'm going to barricade myself in my half-constructed bedroom and spend the rest of the day on FFXII. Maybe I'll come out for a meal later...if I remember.
 
I'm sad, very sad. I was thinking a lot about an old friend I hadn't seen for a long time so I decided to reach out and try to find him. A friend who had knew him informed me that he had died in 2005. :cry: Now I wish I had tried harder to stay in contact when we last crossed paths.
 
Mood: Tired

When there is a discussion about self-care being selfish, you can't help but wonder what people understand when they hear the words "self-care". You cannot serve from an empty vessel. You have to take care of yourself in order to be there for other people. Sometimes it's people that prevent you from taking care of yourself, preventing you from taking care of others and you end up in one of those vicious cycles.

You time. It's needed, I suppose.
 
Mood: Mixed

Reason: It was my mother's 60th birthday the other day and it's really making me realise how old I'm getting. I always think that I'm still 18 :/. Not that I'm saying I'm really old now but it just made me realise people are aging, you know? I've always hated that thought.

At the same time, I got a pay increase the other day buuuuut...I'm also going onto salary rather than being paid by the hour (or 15 minutes in my case). This means that while I stay late at work most days, I won't be paid for doing so anymore. I'll actually be paid a bit less per month regardless of the "pay increase" lol.

...that last one was supposed to be a positive! Maybe my mood ain't so mixed after all :/.
 
Mood: Horrible, Stressed


I was feeding my 7 month old in his high chair. At the same time, trying to manage the adobo chicken I’m cooking in the pan...and going over my notes since I have a big exam next Wednesday.

Then I realized too late that I ate half of my baby’s food.
 
Mood: Exhausted but not so bad

I've been running on fumes these last few weeks and have so much college work to get through it's unreal. It's like there has been this slow and steady sapping of energy, mostly from dealing with people (know what I mean :smh:) which leaves little else for me to look after my own responsibilities. Definitely time for a very early mental spring clean to wash away those crappy, little people who take, take, take and then disappear without a backwards glance when you've run out of energy/patience (whichever comes first).

-as if what; you're supposed to wallow in your grief now that they're gone. Haha! Bless. :tearjoy:

Any which way, it's definitely not worth carrying around that kind of crap, so out it goes. :)
 
Mood: Great!

Reason: This weekend was quite an eventful one! Me and my buddy made the trip to Ann Arbor for the OSU vs Michigan game and it was an experience for sure. This had been on my bucket list for the LONGEST time and it's something I've dreamed of experiencing someday. We had seats at midfield and were 3 rows up. Not only were the seats amazing, but the crowd was insanely loud and the place was rocking! I don't think I've ever done so much yelling and cheering at a game before. The only one that could come close in terms of me cheering would be the Michigan/Michigan State game this year.
Despite the loss I had a wonderful time. There's nothing that comes close to being at the 'Big House'! :)

I already have trips arranged for next year. I full intend on crossing off the 2 remaining stadiums that seat over 100,000 people. Those being Neyland Stadium in Knoxville, Tennessee and Beaver Stadium in State College, Pennsylvania.

Games I'm 100% going to next year:
Michigan at Notre Dame
Michigan at Michigan State
Alabama at Tennessee
Michigan at Ohio State

These games are ones that I'm not 100% sure about, but I plan on doing if the scheduling works out.
Ohio State at Penn State
USC at UCLA

2018 is shaping up to be a football filled year with some traveling. And that's never a bad thing!
xD

 
Mood: Fantastic!

Reason: There were quite a few college games I had planned for next year. But, this weekend that all changed. Instead I have a 2 week trip planned with my dad to go to Madrid, Spain!! We've looked into tickets for the plane, cost for the hotel, everything. I'm gonna save up until August and get prepared for it all but its definitely happening.
Traveling over into another country is always something I've dreamed of doing. And its going to be fucking sweet! I'm also amazed because he hates football and I even talked him into going to a Real Madrid game to watch Cristiano Ronaldo haha!

It's amazing how much life has taken a complete 360. Nothing but good vibes and it hasnt slowed down. I'm completely fine with this :)

 
Mood: Okay

Reason: Wednesday morning I had surgery on my left hand. 28 years old and my hands are complete garbage. I'll be out of work for a month so just spending the time recovering and sitting at home. Today I get to take the bandage off so, yeah. Thats my 2018 so far
 
Mood: Not fantastic

Reason: Just feeling really...unneeded lately? The family attention has shifted over to the sister, with her daughters and...something else I probably shouldn't talk about publicly. At work, there's been no time for socialising and when I do try, nobody wants to know.

I don't even care how selfish and pathetic this sounds anymore.
 
Mood: Fed up

Reason: I wanted to go out this morning, yet for health related reasons I find that I can't. So I'm stuck indoors all day again. It's days like this I'm reminded that I haven't really gotten any better in myself, and I question why I bother to continue living if this is all there is for me. Which I know seems like an extreme reaction, but I am fed up of life being nothing but a continual waste of time and disappointment, and my own inadequacies stopping me from doing the things I want to do. It's no wonder everybody hates me. I hate me too.
 
Mood: Drained

I think it's sometimes easier to be on auto-pilot than to have to deal with all the emotions that come with life at certain points. Rough times or days aren't there to "last" or so they say... Let's find out, I guess?
 
Mood: Mommy

Yeah, mommy mood, why not? I've been doing a lot of self-reflection these past few weeks. I've had so many doubts, uncertainties, and joy come into play as I look at where I am in life now. Married and with three kids, part-time job, still going to school, changing majors and making some tough decisions. I love being a mother though, I thoroughly embrace it. Even as I find myself complaining about the endless chores and laundry (oh my gosh, the big piles of laundry...), kids driving me bonkers, asking help with homework, projects, and essays while I'm trying to do my own and study for finals, lots of dirty diapers, taking them to school and being there to pick them up...I am extremely grateful that I'm their mother. With three kids in three different stages of their young lives, it's so hard to manage them back and forth, knowing I have to do these things all over again with my little one.

But boy do I love them and all the joys and grief that comes with parenting. As I find myself crawling in their little playhouse (which admittedly I bought for myself too), making weird noises and faces I didn't even know I was capable of making, dancing stupidly when I don't even like to dance...there's fleeting moments when I think, "What am I doing with my life?" But as fleeting as they come, they're replaced with the childlike and playful side in me, and I love that. I hope one day when they have a family of their own, they'll remember the little moments that bear no significant goals and achievements in life the most, because those are the moments when I sneak up and smother them with hugs and kisses, before I order them to do their dishes.
 
Mood: Pensive

Reason: Well a lot is still going on this wee ole life of mine. My father is remarrying after the loss of my mom in 2016. I've moved on to a new job and have started dating a high school sweet heart. I am still climbing to take the edge off, but have stopped hiking during this relentless wet season. I am deep in thought due to mostly, I have many thoughts of what to do next with my life. While my girlfriend has a 20 month year old baby girl and I am like a father already due to raising two nieces, I'm thinking about potentially either moving up north east or west a bit. The issue obviously is the cost of living might not scale correctly, but as we know, when will it? I think right now I'm going to hang on to my guns and keep focused at the new job. I also am going to travel a bit more here and there. Last year I went to Colorado, the UK (London/Oxford), California (South Lake Tahoe), Portland (Oregon) and Captiva Island (Florida). This year I want to head to Los Angeles (California), Ireland or Iceland, and back to Colorado for some relaxation among the Rockies. Additionally, might go to Austin, Texas. I've heard great things.
 
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