[V4] What's Your Mood?
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Mood: Crappola! 
Reason: I don't know! Since I got home from Hell yesterday, I've just felt like crap. It's the weekend! I shouldn't be moping about and shouting at the TV when a game goes badly lmao :/. The parents have known about my mood too, god help them. Maybe I'll get one day off tomorrow where things don't feel quite so pointless
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Reason: I don't know! Since I got home from Hell yesterday, I've just felt like crap. It's the weekend! I shouldn't be moping about and shouting at the TV when a game goes badly lmao :/. The parents have known about my mood too, god help them. Maybe I'll get one day off tomorrow where things don't feel quite so pointless
.Annoyed.
Sometimes, even though you love your family, there are just some people that'll get under your skin. In my case, it's a certain in-law. They're visiting until tomorrow, and have not only managed to upset my wife more than a handful of times already, but they're trying to "take over" as a my kid's parent. That's not okay.
/rant
Sometimes, even though you love your family, there are just some people that'll get under your skin. In my case, it's a certain in-law. They're visiting until tomorrow, and have not only managed to upset my wife more than a handful of times already, but they're trying to "take over" as a my kid's parent. That's not okay.
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Tired! It's been a weird day/ evening. Super weird! Settled down but still. So much blegh D:
Think I'm supposed to be looking after my niece for a few hours tonight. I cannot even be bothered. Gonna sleep for a few hours first otherwise it'll be the end of me. aaaah.
Think I'm supposed to be looking after my niece for a few hours tonight. I cannot even be bothered. Gonna sleep for a few hours first otherwise it'll be the end of me. aaaah.
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Mood: Happy/Excited
Reason: I've officially been cleared to return to work with no restrictions! It's been a nice break to relax and let my hand heal up, but it's gonna be nice to make money again and be with all the guys in the warehouse. Kinda nervous though because I have this awful feeling that when I grab a case to put on my skid, that my wrist will snap back and I'll be fucked again.
Reason: I've officially been cleared to return to work with no restrictions! It's been a nice break to relax and let my hand heal up, but it's gonna be nice to make money again and be with all the guys in the warehouse. Kinda nervous though because I have this awful feeling that when I grab a case to put on my skid, that my wrist will snap back and I'll be fucked again.
Now watch, I won't be so lucky come tomorrow. 
My mood?
Heh...
Simple,
I'm useless.
To myself, and the people around me.
Heh...
Simple,
I'm useless.
To myself, and the people around me.
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Mood: 
So tired, and I'm dreading work tonight. Inventory night, so they're having a few of us stay until 4:30 a.m. I'm used to arriving to work at that time on weekends, not the other way around.
It's gonna be a loooong night.
So tired, and I'm dreading work tonight. Inventory night, so they're having a few of us stay until 4:30 a.m. I'm used to arriving to work at that time on weekends, not the other way around.
It's gonna be a loooong night.
I think Mits' icon sums it up:
Feel so sick today. Weather has regularly been hitting 2-3 degrees Celsius and that isn't helping any. So cold. Also jumping on to do some roulettes in XIV was a mistake and now I have a headache. Supposed to get started on some uni stuff like right now but I'm gonna put it off. Great start to semester!
Positive note, booked my flights to Melbourne in a couple of weeks. We're gonna see an AFL game while we're over there which I'm excited for as I've never been to one in person. My team is playing too! So yay.
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Feel so sick today. Weather has regularly been hitting 2-3 degrees Celsius and that isn't helping any. So cold. Also jumping on to do some roulettes in XIV was a mistake and now I have a headache. Supposed to get started on some uni stuff like right now but I'm gonna put it off. Great start to semester!
Positive note, booked my flights to Melbourne in a couple of weeks. We're gonna see an AFL game while we're over there which I'm excited for as I've never been to one in person. My team is playing too! So yay.
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.Accomplished. 
My daughter is two months old today! It feels great that I've done well caring her during this time, even if it's only a small portion of her life. Of course I expect to make mistakes along the way, but as long as she turns out to be a decent human being, I'll know I've done my job right.
My daughter is two months old today! It feels great that I've done well caring her during this time, even if it's only a small portion of her life. Of course I expect to make mistakes along the way, but as long as she turns out to be a decent human being, I'll know I've done my job right.
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Mood: Tired and haunted, but casually content with that for some reason.
It's an odd feeling. I never post in this thread so I guess it must take an odd feeling for me to post here.
But, yeah. Basically I've had a number of nights where I've struggled to sleep and so I was clearly quite tired when I crawled into bed last night. So tired that I actually hallucinated and had a waking nightmare. As soon as I climbed into bed I rolled over to my left and saw a 'tribal' dwarf African woman standing there scowling at me. It was quite creepy and only really lasted for an instant before I shook my head and saw that she was 'gone'. She reminded me of the 'hobbit lady' hominid from the island of Flores, but this morning I couldn't stop thinking about the Tokoloshe of Zulu folklore instead. Which makes it creepier.
Anyway I've never had a hallucination before (and it really was vivid). I can tick that one off the list. I was only scared for a few seconds but I instantly recognised that it was a hallucination and then continued to attempt to sleep. However, all of those moments in movies which seem far-fetched I’ll now take a little bit more seriously.
In other news, I'm still rather happy because the weekend before last I was at the Star Wars Celebration in London. That was quite awesome.
It's an odd feeling. I never post in this thread so I guess it must take an odd feeling for me to post here.
But, yeah. Basically I've had a number of nights where I've struggled to sleep and so I was clearly quite tired when I crawled into bed last night. So tired that I actually hallucinated and had a waking nightmare. As soon as I climbed into bed I rolled over to my left and saw a 'tribal' dwarf African woman standing there scowling at me. It was quite creepy and only really lasted for an instant before I shook my head and saw that she was 'gone'. She reminded me of the 'hobbit lady' hominid from the island of Flores, but this morning I couldn't stop thinking about the Tokoloshe of Zulu folklore instead. Which makes it creepier.
Anyway I've never had a hallucination before (and it really was vivid). I can tick that one off the list. I was only scared for a few seconds but I instantly recognised that it was a hallucination and then continued to attempt to sleep. However, all of those moments in movies which seem far-fetched I’ll now take a little bit more seriously.
In other news, I'm still rather happy because the weekend before last I was at the Star Wars Celebration in London. That was quite awesome.
Mood: Anxious and grateful
...That's normal, right?
Anyway, anxious because things have just been kinda busy and not everything is looking the way I want it to. I'm acknowledging that I'm not responsible for anyone but myself, but I can get quite frustrated when I can't keep something together for someone else. Dumb, sure, I just feel responsible. Too many things scheduled, too. Ugh. Anxiety can fuck off.
Grateful, well, you know. You just gotta be from time to time.
...That's normal, right?
Anyway, anxious because things have just been kinda busy and not everything is looking the way I want it to. I'm acknowledging that I'm not responsible for anyone but myself, but I can get quite frustrated when I can't keep something together for someone else. Dumb, sure, I just feel responsible. Too many things scheduled, too. Ugh. Anxiety can fuck off.
Grateful, well, you know. You just gotta be from time to time.
Creative! And caffeinated. Haha.
Without going into great detail, I've been working on something the last week or so, and it's these last few days where the creativity has really been flowing. I'm trying something new with what I'm working on (and I've done what I'm working on many times before, in some fashion).
Aside from that, my writing juices are flowing once again, too. I'm hoping to get my fanfics here updated by this weekend, and add more information to potential role plays.
Without going into great detail, I've been working on something the last week or so, and it's these last few days where the creativity has really been flowing. I'm trying something new with what I'm working on (and I've done what I'm working on many times before, in some fashion).
Aside from that, my writing juices are flowing once again, too. I'm hoping to get my fanfics here updated by this weekend, and add more information to potential role plays.
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Mood: Disturbed
Woke up a couple hours ago from a nightmare. Last day to do my final exams is on Thursday (I'm doing first part later today) and I had dreamt that we were all in an amusement park with our instructor. In order to take our final exam, we had to go hop on a ride (individually) that took us inside a dark area...where our final exam questions were posted overhead up above (just sort of hovering)...while the ride was running. It turned out that I got distracted by the eerie Halloween setup and had totally missed the questions. I tried frantically to look up and read some of those questions but the text was so small and the ride kept moving so I basically flunked the exam. I managed to answer 5 questions out of 106 questions.
Got off the ride and told my instructor what had happened. I almost felt like crying. She gave me a hug, but that was it. I don't even know what she looks like because this is an online class so I've never met this lady in my life, but apparently in my dream she had a short hair, blonde.
Dionysos I worry about our sanity...we are both being haunted.
Woke up a couple hours ago from a nightmare. Last day to do my final exams is on Thursday (I'm doing first part later today) and I had dreamt that we were all in an amusement park with our instructor. In order to take our final exam, we had to go hop on a ride (individually) that took us inside a dark area...where our final exam questions were posted overhead up above (just sort of hovering)...while the ride was running. It turned out that I got distracted by the eerie Halloween setup and had totally missed the questions. I tried frantically to look up and read some of those questions but the text was so small and the ride kept moving so I basically flunked the exam. I managed to answer 5 questions out of 106 questions.
Got off the ride and told my instructor what had happened. I almost felt like crying. She gave me a hug, but that was it. I don't even know what she looks like because this is an online class so I've never met this lady in my life, but apparently in my dream she had a short hair, blonde.
Dionysos I worry about our sanity...we are both being haunted.
There are nothing like adorable baby smiles to start off the day. So, happy.
Today is 15ish hours of work. 7ish for training, 8ish covering for a fellow manager. (Something unfortunate happened to them, so I was happy to cover for them for the next couple of days.) So yeah, it'll be a busy one, but once this training is done (by September, I think), there comes a bit of a pay bump... and I'll obviously take that.
Taking care of kids ain't cheap!
So, happy.Today is 15ish hours of work. 7ish for training, 8ish covering for a fellow manager. (Something unfortunate happened to them, so I was happy to cover for them for the next couple of days.) So yeah, it'll be a busy one, but once this training is done (by September, I think), there comes a bit of a pay bump... and I'll obviously take that.
Taking care of kids ain't cheap!Mood: A little bit sad
Reason: My dad has been ill lately. Apparently it's an infection and if he caught it sooner (ie wasn't such a turd and went to the doctors) then it wouldn't have reached the point it got to today. He actually left work a few hours early and went straight to bed, which he would never normally do. Really bad headaches, fever, spewing his guts up, delusions. Luckily, my aunty is a nurse and came to visit (yes...just a quick, coincidental visit...). She set him straight and chucked him in a freezing cold bath. She says he's dehydrated and that's causing the headaches. He needs to keep really cold too, regardless of how cold he feels all the time. He's actually boiling hot lmao.
He'll be better in a few days, so I don't feel as bad as I could maybe
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Reason: My dad has been ill lately. Apparently it's an infection and if he caught it sooner (ie wasn't such a turd and went to the doctors) then it wouldn't have reached the point it got to today. He actually left work a few hours early and went straight to bed, which he would never normally do. Really bad headaches, fever, spewing his guts up, delusions. Luckily, my aunty is a nurse and came to visit (yes...just a quick, coincidental visit...). She set him straight and chucked him in a freezing cold bath. She says he's dehydrated and that's causing the headaches. He needs to keep really cold too, regardless of how cold he feels all the time. He's actually boiling hot lmao.
He'll be better in a few days, so I don't feel as bad as I could maybe
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Mood: Agitated
Reason: Bear with me, this is gonna be long.
I suppose that I'm just a little messed up in the head, to be totally honest. I've never had a "good" relationship, or a "normal" one, so I don't know how they're supposed to work, exactly. I suppose I should limit this to just my top three issues?
Firstly, Last week, management fired my entire staff.
One was fired because she called out two days in a row, and then didn't come back with a doctor's note. Now, anyone who's ever held a job knows that if you call out in your first 90 days, you're done, right? Even with a doctor's note. But nooo, apparently, things are different here, and you can call off whenever you want as long as you have that there doctor's note.
The other was fired because she called off, and then was late the next day. So instead of having a team, I got saddled with the work of five me's. And I already was doing the work of three people. My staff now consists of myself, my site manager, and two trainees.
Speaking of that, one never thinks that training someone will be difficult, but the problem here is that my boss, in her infinite "wisdom", decided that she wasn't going to order my staff another computer. So I have one computer to train my new girls in an art I've spent years perfecting.
I will have pulled 60+ hours in the shop this week, and I'm so very tired.
Second, I'm not getting enough sleep. I'm starting to hallucinate weird stuff, and I've been micronapping. My boss tells me that I should go see a doctor, but I'm not paid enough to have insurance. Somehow, I'm making it, and I think it's due in large part to my wonderful, understanding lady, and Java monsters.
I'm scared, though, because apnea runs in my family, and coupling all this with insomnia and the fact that I'm only able to eat little things throughout the day worries me that I might actually be suffering some serious health issues.
Third- I've hit a creative wall. I want to write, to- to do, I guess. I want to leave a mark, and all that I really have to give is in my head. But when I sit down to write, nothing comes out. It used to be that my words just flowed, but lately, there's like a lever that's been turned off or something. Maybe it's just that I'm not really trying to take care of myself anymore; I'm trying to function, to make enough money that I can give my girl the life she deserves, instead of the one she's willing to settle for, you know?
Reason: Bear with me, this is gonna be long.
I suppose that I'm just a little messed up in the head, to be totally honest. I've never had a "good" relationship, or a "normal" one, so I don't know how they're supposed to work, exactly. I suppose I should limit this to just my top three issues?
Firstly, Last week, management fired my entire staff.
One was fired because she called out two days in a row, and then didn't come back with a doctor's note. Now, anyone who's ever held a job knows that if you call out in your first 90 days, you're done, right? Even with a doctor's note. But nooo, apparently, things are different here, and you can call off whenever you want as long as you have that there doctor's note.
The other was fired because she called off, and then was late the next day. So instead of having a team, I got saddled with the work of five me's. And I already was doing the work of three people. My staff now consists of myself, my site manager, and two trainees.
Speaking of that, one never thinks that training someone will be difficult, but the problem here is that my boss, in her infinite "wisdom", decided that she wasn't going to order my staff another computer. So I have one computer to train my new girls in an art I've spent years perfecting.
I will have pulled 60+ hours in the shop this week, and I'm so very tired.
Second, I'm not getting enough sleep. I'm starting to hallucinate weird stuff, and I've been micronapping. My boss tells me that I should go see a doctor, but I'm not paid enough to have insurance. Somehow, I'm making it, and I think it's due in large part to my wonderful, understanding lady, and Java monsters.
I'm scared, though, because apnea runs in my family, and coupling all this with insomnia and the fact that I'm only able to eat little things throughout the day worries me that I might actually be suffering some serious health issues.
Third- I've hit a creative wall. I want to write, to- to do, I guess. I want to leave a mark, and all that I really have to give is in my head. But when I sit down to write, nothing comes out. It used to be that my words just flowed, but lately, there's like a lever that's been turned off or something. Maybe it's just that I'm not really trying to take care of myself anymore; I'm trying to function, to make enough money that I can give my girl the life she deserves, instead of the one she's willing to settle for, you know?
In seriously deep thought.
So, as I'd mentioned before, I was having a creativity streak. Now it's hit me that I could do even more, on top of what I'm already doing, for the project I'm working on. It's pretty exciting, because, hopefully, with the end product, it'll be simple enough for others, but incredibly flexible and fun overall.
I'd hate too put so much work into this, only for it to fail miserably, though.
So, as I'd mentioned before, I was having a creativity streak. Now it's hit me that I could do even more, on top of what I'm already doing, for the project I'm working on. It's pretty exciting, because, hopefully, with the end product, it'll be simple enough for others, but incredibly flexible and fun overall.
I'd hate too put so much work into this, only for it to fail miserably, though.
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